DADDY 1.4.35 - 3.4.2020

I will burn a candle

Place it in the window

So you can see the light

And find your way home

My dad is 85 today.   My daddy is a gentle man and a gentleman, with a ready smile and a twinkle in his eye.  I love you Daddy.  A wonderful father, grandfather, great-grandfather.  I am proud to be your daughter, and I know you are proud of me too.  I learnt a lot, but not enough, from you.  I should have taken time to listen to more stories and wisdom.   But I did learn from your example to work hard for the big things and the little things, to love the garden and nature, good food and time spent with you. 

 I lit you a candle.  Just the one.  But it's a big one.

Last Thursday my daddy had a catastrophic stroke.
My daddy has the heart of an elephant.
Big, strong, gentle, kind.
Soon it will be silent.

I know that I will take pleasure and pain remembering our times together and use my tears to mix the colours of my life into a new tapestry where you smile at me and walk with butterflies into infinity.

Today we should be celebrating, instead we hold ourselves together, but alone, waiting to mourn, yet already mourning.   So I'm going to make a cake and enjoy it and think of you.  What'll it be daddy, fruit or chocolate??  Let's dance down Wells highstreet daddy, have a cream tea, or fish and chips and compare notes on successes and failures in the greenhouse.

My only regret is that we can not be with you at this time. HUGZ

3rd April 2020
My daddy's heart is still.
Rest peacefully sweet soul.